Having mindblock is like a fat kid that got his ice cream stolen. It's just horrible. Especially on that time when you need it desperately. So desperately that I even googled shit like 'ideas' and 'inspirations' to get inspired. This morning I use 3 hours to finish a backdrop design - which usually only took me 30mins - 1hr++.
Yes, I need to get out of the house - to where? I don't know. Perhaps hanging out with kids. OH YES. I got an A for drawing studies in 2010 because I was working at Al-Hadanah. Kids are inspiring, really. Give them a piece of white paper and you'll get everything you need in life. I learnt that, inspiration is just like... love - you can't force them lololll. I mean really *muka serius*. Forcing an idea out of your brain, that's where bad ideas come from. Bad, desperate... just BAD! I believe good ideas come naturally from nowhere and unexpected. And just so you know, my office is a bad incubator. Thank God for coffee and radio. Without these two, the place is just so stressful.
MUET is like next month and I haven't even done any intensive revision. I don't even have a tutor lol. Talking about suicide. Mama asked me to tender my resignation letter earlier, but I can't even reread the letter without feeling so upset. I mean, come on, it's been a year since I work there and it feels like just yesterday when I bragged so much during the interview because I wanted the job so badly. And then I got tortured so badly too. And I learned a lot. I get to learn a lot a lot a lot more in my workplace than in my college. Not to mention she is an excellent mentor (really strict and even calls me at night when I'm about to sleep and there was one time (or two) I got 9 missed calls from her). She may sound bitchy but after all, she is nice. She is genuinely nice.
But yes, I will tender my resignation letter on the 31st. You can't have it all at once, you see. I will have to let go one of it. I choose my studies because I know what my priorities are.
But the problem is now, I'm so out of inspirations X_X
I'm changing my topic from 'Childhood Superstitions' to just 'Childhood'. More things to express. So hide yo wif hide yo kids I'm going to visit yo neighbourhood playgrounds or kindergartens to steal some kids inspirations.
Oh yes, this might be a little bit irrelevant but at this cafe where I always get my breakfast from, there's this guy - he works there as a waiter. Sometimes they do deliveries to offices, shops in the whole building. Yes it's common to normal people. But what makes this guy special is that - he is disabled. Imagine sending food with your wheelchair from the cafe at 3rd floor to 1st floor. He even goes to work with a motorcycle (a bike for disabled person, of course)! Seeing him working everyday gives me hope. He's an inspiration. So YOU. Yes, YOU. You're the one with perfect body, WHAT'S YOUR EXCUSE?
Got my book vouchers. Thank God I'm still a student. Gonna hunt for books tomorrow. Fresh grads (specifically to my sister), U jelly? *troll face*
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